i never thought it be so hard

HOLLAAAA

2005-06-29T01:50:42Z

HOLLA from st louis missouri !! most amazing place ever im having the bestttt time of my life :) the hotel is to die for you get treated so well ! so my day went by pretty much with getting up at 7 o clock , getting dressed and finishing up some packing .. we left my house at like 8:15 and we got to the airport at like 8:30ish .. my flight wasnt until 9:30 so i got a bagel and hashbrowns lol and then waited and read a magazine and finallyboarded the incredibly hot , narrow , plane. not too bumpy .. i fell asleep on the first flight. we had a layaway in Dallas so we stopped there for an hour , ate , then boarded the next flight to STL ! that was a good ride :) i read the sisterhood of the traveling pants and fell asleep again =P FINALLY we got there ! met up with brucye ol' boy , got in the car , and drove to the ritzzzz baby ! ugh it was so awesome .. so i got in the room & unpacked all my shit by the way which was extremely overpacked haha what can i say im a girl .. go tin my bathing suit and went down to the fitness center/pool thing. yeah i worked out for like an hour and burned 100 calories ! feelin slimmer .. hahaha -- then i went in the steam room which was aaaammaaaziiinggg ! then my brother came down and we went in the pool & jacuzzi then just went back up to the room. ordered room service blah blah .. ate .. & just got situated ! so now its 9:49 and im just here sippin an appletini ! shhhh .. ;)
infinite x's & o's !
♥ emily

all_the_piecez @ 2005-06-25T00:10:00

2005-06-25T04:16:16Z

ugh .. i dont even like to update this thing anymore .. im in a really weird mood right now ? whatever -- yeah so summers gotten off to a good but slowwww start i guess .. its been raining practically everyday so i havent hit up the beach hotties yet ;) haha .. and i havent really hung out with alot of my friends .. mainly just dani lol , but i promise you guys we willlll hang out and it willlll be amazing ! yeah so this post is kinda gay but its okay ` i really wish we were doing nationals this summer , oh well ..

* countdowns *
- st louis = 4 days !!
- i move :( = 35 days
- ballet intensive = 38 days
- end of summer = 45 fucking days

wowww it all goes by so fast !
♥♥ em *

c/o 05 forever.

2005-06-13T00:16:47Z

wow , i just had a total breakdown - i was looking at shannons pictures and just burst into tears. i miss c/o 05 sooooooo fucking much and ill never forget all of the crazy memories we made this year , i cant believe the year is over and everyone is splitting apart. ugh dont ask i dont know why but this is all just pouring out of my head and i just miss you guys =( ♥ 05 forever !

i should be crying *

2005-06-03T22:45:51Z

well , the last day at school was one of the saddest days ever. i never realized how much im really going to miss irms -- i had 3 of my best years there. there were always tears and drama but then again always laughs and smiles. ughhh i took soo many pictures that ill post later ! but yeah it was really fun ! i lost it at the end of 4th hour =( lol but enough of that before i cry again ! last night was fun .. me , kaitlyn , katrina , alex , and lindsey all went out to wolfgang =D haha we all got the same thing. i saw shannon and brooke and kelsey and that whole crew so we gave hugs and then left them. then me and my people walked around the mall and shopped a lil bit. kaitlyn got a bathing suit in pacsun and i got some eyeshadow haha as usual =P then we saw shannon and julien again so we talked for a lil then they left. then at 9ish alex's mom came to get us and drove us back to kaitlyns house. blah blah the only people who ended up sleeping over were me and katrina haha but it was fun. k well ill update more later cuz im going to tays ! ♥

fun ass night !!

2005-06-01T02:21:49Z

wowww tonight was amazingly fun ! first of all school was a waste of my time but whatever lol , afterwards me kaitlyn and taylor walked over to burger king and had a feasssst ! we saw alexis and keely there so we all took pictures then left. it was so hot but we walked to the store .. we got there and just hung out then we decided to go out 2 dinner so we walked over to kiks house , got clothes , then came back to the store. we were all trying to decide where to go to dinner so my mom was just like well ill give you my credit card and you guys can go out , scoooore mother fuckers ! so we came home and got ready , took pictures , taylor danced around naked ;) haha it was so great then michelle and hannah came to pick us up and we drove for like everrr trying to find a restaurant ! we were jammin out in the car man it was awesome !! we finally agreed on fridays =P and we got there and michelle was like " its so beautiful ! " haha yeah so we got our food and all of a sudden this little boy pops up from the booth next to us and scared the shit out of me ! so then he was like playing around with us and spitting food on meee ! then he called us poopeyheads ? haha w/e and taylor was like fighting him haha -- so then we said it was kiks bday and got a free ice cream thingy & sung her happy bday ( fridays style of course ) ! it was hilarious omg .. so then were done we get in the car and rockkk out to the rocket summer ! in the car we told old stories , laughed , then got home & took tons of pics of us dancing and being crazy ! -- wow i love my girls .. k peaceout girl scouts ♥

i wanna run with the wild horses<3

2005-05-28T23:48:53Z

field day '05 was amaziiinggg .. i love c/o '05 to death ! yeah so it was frickin hot all day and i got sunburnt but hey i took a bunch of pics that i know youll enjoy ! k well this post is kinda boring cuz thats exactly what i am right now -- ill update later about my night with kik and shit. k loveyoubitches ! peace out <3

- everyone and their feast !

- taylor is a hot motherfuckerr ya'll !

- alex , kaitlyn , me , ewww im hideous but otherwise this is a cute pic !

THE TWO EMILYS ! iloveyoucarollo

- me , roxy , rollo .. ily guys !

- what am i gunna do without this girl !? I LOVE YOU BROOKE !!

- me and shannon marie ; im gunna miss you so much you have no idea ! <333

- me and kiki .. how gangster am i ?

- my loves !! tayt , brooke , shannon , & muah -- i love you girls !

- me and kik after field day , look how red i am !

FIELD DAYYY

2005-05-27T11:30:01Z

what it is hoeee ? wuddup wuddup G's , nuttin here sorry i never update lol things have been crazzzyy lately ! yeah so these past few days at school have been extremely sad :( me and shannon like busted out crying after p.e lol it was so sad , we talked about just like everything and how its gunna be so different in high school and how all of our friends are seperated and just like everything ! i love you soo much shannon marie. then we saw a whole posse of 7th graders crying i was like " you have one more year you losers ! " haha but yeah so anyways , i found out im not going to western. im moving to cooper city and going to cooper city high ! i guess its ok tho cuz i have some of my best friends at cooper but im reallly gonna miss everyone from irms. this year was amazing no matter how much drama and bullshit went on. people became friends with different friends , there were major hookups and breakups , but we had so much fun ! im so sad this year is coming to an end because i really made some amazing friends this year. so today is field day .. and its going to fucking rock my socks !!! i cant wait , expect a load of pictures =)

I LOVE MY '05 CLASS !!!!

* emily elizabeth <3

fun day =)

2005-05-17T02:21:15Z

hallo everyone ! today was such a good day =) first of all robert wasnt at school ! haha , so yeah .. umm p.e was really fun ! me and turk keep having these battles cuz he swears hes a better dancer than me haha its pretty funny .. i dont think ive ever laughed so much today in school ! it was just , a good day for once. after school i went to tayyyys house lol and we worked on the p.c thing , haha we are the best poets everrr ! i love you tizzle ! " lil miss wheely " lol ! -- yeah so then fa came and got me and i went home , got ready for dance , and went. it was greattt haha ok in ballet we did like nothing but talk and laugh .. so then ms krysten decides she wants chinese food. so i call or w/e and the lady like didnt speak one word of english and im like whatever ill just go pick it up cuz she said it would be 2 hours for delivery and it was like 2 doors down from us. so me and taylor are like oh hell no so we go over to the restaurant and were like how long is it to make a frickin bowl of soup ? and the lady was like " 45 minutesss ! you come back 45 minutes " were just like um okay whatever. so 45 minutes go by and me , taylor , beast , and jesie go over and were like giveee usss ourr fooodd ! haha so then me and beast of course are like oh lets play with the fish tank ! so i dropped a toothpick in the fish tank and like all of them fish kept trying to eat it ! then we went over to the freezer and theres like frozen liver in there it was groosooo ! then this cutie came in =) yeah well im gunna go ! love you hotties ♥
& this hurts me much more than you know ..

-- emily

friends forever !

2005-05-16T11:58:27Z

heyyy .. its way early and i have like 15 minutes til i have to get ready for school so i thought id show you guys the 8th grade dance pictures !!! =) it was alot of fun and kind of sad cuz it was the last time a lot of us would party 2gether until we go off to seperate high schools.all of you that aren't going to western im going to miss you soooo much ! everyone looked soo gorgeous at the dance =) ok well here they are, enjoy !

- kaitlyn , katrina , & me before ...

- & us after !

- the sun was in our eyes ! haha

- us in the car on the way there <33

- bored on the way there !

- me and kik ew i dont like this pic =/

- freaks for lifeee

- katie and me :)

- shannon i love you sooo fucking much !!

- me and brooke .. love ya !

- noodle for life.

- keeeelsters i love you so much !!

- me , linds , kaitlyn , becca , katrina ! so cute guys =)

my kneee !

2005-05-14T14:17:52Z

owww my knee hurts soo badd ! i can barely even like lift it up yet i have dance 2day , ballet 2wice ! er. whatever ill just have to try lol .. yeah so i was upset last night but i got home,went online,and felt a lil bit better .. i watched the laguna marathon and that put me in such a good mood. and yes im fucking obsessed with ste-phennn ! ahhh hes amazing ! so 2day is the 8th grade dance , hmmm .. not really excited but i am excited to see whats gunna go down lol -- i really hope its not gay ! get ready for some gossip , drama.

alright well im out , this update was pointless ?

and the truth is .. i miss you <3

You are...(looks)
[ ] tall
[x] in between
[] shorty short short.

[ ] blonde
[ ] redhead
[x] brown
[ ] black
[ ] other

[ ] blue-eyed
[x] brown-eyed
[ ] green-eyed
[ ] hazel eyed
[ ] gold/gray eyed
[] glasses
[ ] contacts

[ ] braces
[x] freckles
[x] piercings
[ ] tatoos

[x] long hair
[ ] short hair
[] med. Hair

Your nationality includes...
[ ] chinese
[ ] indian
[ ] taiwanese
[ ] japanese
[] hispanic
[ ] nicoya
[] puerto rican
[ ] chicana
[x] italian
[ ] scottish
[ ] filipino
[ ] danish
[ ] dutch
[ ] french
[ ] german
[x] irish
] greek
[ ] portugeese
[ ] polish
[ ] korean
[ ] jamacian
[ ] canadian
[ ] lithuanian
[ ] English
[ ] Native American
[x]Russian
[ ] British
[ ] African
[ ] Australian
[ ] Other

Your favorite color(s) are?
[] red
[x] pink
[x] yellow
[] black
[x] green
[] blue
[] white
[ ] silver
[ ] purple
[ ] brown
[ ] orange

Some sports/physical things you have done?
[] soccer (for fun)
[ ] cheerleading
[ x] dancing
[ ] lacrosse
[ ] field hockey
[ ] hockey
[ ] football
[ ] softball
[ ] wrestling
[x] gymnastics
[ ] track/cross country
[ ] Basketball
[ ] baseball
[ ] golf
[ ] playing in the mud
[] playing music
[ ] hiking
[ ] kayaking
[ ] camping
[ ] horseback riding
[ ] marching band

Your personality is sometimes...
[] annoying
[x] talkative
[ ] shy
[x] funny
[x] serious
[x] bubbly
[] spazzy
[x] fun loving
[x] laid back
[ ] strict
[x] hyper
[x] weird

The music you like is?
[x] rap
[x] rock
[x] pop
[ ] country
[ ] hip hop
[ ] r&b
[ ] slow jams
[ ] Christian
[ ] classical
[ ] techno
[ ] oldies
[x] punk
[ ] Metal
[ ] reggae
[ ] Goth
[ ] Latin

The pets you have are?
[x] cat
[x] dog
[ ] lizard
[ ] rat
[ ] ferret
[] rabbit
[] fish
[] Bird
[ ] other

Clothes you like to wear are?
[ ] band tshirts
[x] sweatshirts
[ ] stockings
[ ] boots
[ ] high heels
[x] sneakers
[x] jeans
[x] pj pants
[] boxers
[x] underwear
[ ] dresses
[x skirts
[ ] watches
[x] necklace
[ ] hoop earring(s)
[ ] toe socks
[x] flip flops
[x] halter tops
[ ] stilletos
[x] shorts

How do you like to wear your hair?
[x] down
[x] ponytail
[x] pigtails
[x] messy bun
[x] half ponytail
[x] scrunched/curly
[ ] bun
[ ] crimped
[ ] with a bandana
[ ] French braids
[ ] lots of little braids
[] Gel
[ ] Hat
[ ] messy hot guy hair!!!!
[ ] Fohawk!!!
[ ] mohawk
[x] however the HELL i want to

You're mostly labeled as?
[ ] goth
[ ] emo
[x] preppy
[ ] punk
[ ] hippie
[] nerd
[ ] ditzy
[x ] hyper
[x] happy
[ ] everything
[x] I'm just me!!!
[ ] i have no idea
[ ] faggot
[ ] No one has seen able to label me yet!

You eat?
[ ] dessert every night
[] no meat
[ ] diet stuff
[] healthy foods
[x] junk foods
[ ] sausages
[x] a lot of carbs
[ ] lots of meat
[] salad
[ ] seafood
[x] chicken

A typical friday night...
[x] mall with your friends
[x] partying
[x] watching movies
[ ] going to the club
[] staying home
[ ] babysitting and getting $$
[x] hanging out w/ my friends
[ ] hanging out w/ your boyfriend/girlfriend
[ ] working while your friends are out having fun!
[ ] working out

Currently you are...
[] in a relationship
[ ] single and lovin it
[ ] crushing
[ ] single and looking for someone
[ ] just broke up. . . and so sad about it.
[x] SINGLE AND WAITING FOR GOD TO PROVIDE ME WITH A PERFECT MATCH

Online, you use:
[x] lol
[ ] sup
[x] =D
[x] lmao
[ ] stfu
[ ] ty
[x] j/k
[x] ttyl
[x] g2g
[ ] ^^
[ ] T_T
[ ] x_x
[ ] ^_^

wowwww bad day

2005-05-14T01:15:36Z

ughhhh today was the worst day ive had in a while. oh and yes , its friday the 13th. so it started out with school - it was gay. i left early that was the best part ! and me and paige talked for a while trying to find ms brown , that was cool ; shes awesome =)

so i left school at 2 and just as im waking guess who walks by with his class and like smirks at me. yeuppp. so i was like errr .. and i went home and got everything ready which was a drag and put me in a bad mood cuz i would have much rather gone out 2nite then gone to gay ass dress rehersal.

so first theres like major traffic going to bcc and i was like " great im gunna get screamed at " so i get there and im like ewww. we warmed up and did finale once then started dress rehersal. everything was going great until my curtain card. i did it or w/e and wen i was coming off i smashed my knee into the corner of the speakerbox. holyyyy shit it started bleeding and bruised and swelled up and i can barely move it. and guess what dance is next ? pointe. yeah. omg i was dying and i was like hysterically crying and i could barely dance so it suckeddd !

then it kept hurting and i was just in such a bad mood and wen i got in the c ar like thoughts kept flying through my head .. dance,robert,school,friends,life, just everything and i had a huge breakdown. i just started crying hysterically and i didnt even no why. i feel like i dont really have any true friends and im not really wanted by anyone. which shows when robert goes and acts all gay .. i was so upset i just kept crying and crying i couldnt stop just everything was going through my head and im soo stressed out !! ughhhhhh.

whatever im gunna go watch a movie in my bed =)
maybe that will cheer me up ?
comment ♥
- and the truth is, i miss u.
` emily

im better off everyday ..

2005-05-13T03:23:53Z

i have wayyyy too many things to do ! first of all , gay ass dress rehersal is 2morro ! i have to leave school early which will cause me to miss a lesson in math and i really cant afford it.

2:00 , moms picking me up , going home , showering , getting costumes and shoes together , off to BCC ! ewww .. i have a curtain card and i dont know what to do for it ! oye yoy yoy yoy ..

saturday - 8th grade dance !! im so excited to see how its gunna be .. probably gunna be gay although some cuties i know are attending ;) haha .. problem is : my dress is halter and ms brown says i cant be a tomato and cant wear it =( darn. haha howww gayyerrr cannn irms gett !?!

and it bothers me that he doesnt even pay attention anymore.

comments = love.
emiliaaa *

-- this hurts me much more than you know --

[EDIT] me and shannon salsa danced in p.e 2day and it was fucking amazing ! benjamin daniel turk is soo me and shannons ! haha jkjk hes a peomp. i cant wait to show everyone our dance !! sorry boys , this dance is ladiessss night. taking my mind off of him for once hopefully ♥
I LOVE YOU SHANNON !!!

i didnt mean it , i swear.

2005-05-11T03:05:13Z

i didnt mean it when i said i didnt love you so,

i should have held on tight i never should have let you go.

i didn't know nothin i was stupid i was foolish

i was lying to myself ...

-- i was in a good mood 2day until dance , ha. whateverrrr omg i dont even care like you dont even know ! i cant wait until the dance - its gunna be amazing ! its basically like , our graduation cuz gay ass mr zagari wont give us one ! or a 8th grade field trip !! hell yeah im excited =) i dont know what im doing after .. but whatever ill figure it out.

school was shit today as always whatever ! we got our spring pics =) hehe

kk enough of me , so how have you been ? ;)

- trio =) i love my sisters !

-- our hands haha mine is the whitest one ! lol

- CHARLIES ANGELS BITCHES !

- michelle and meeee

- me and banana

- michelle and me !

- i didnt even know hannah took this pic but i like it =)

- i love you !

- hotttt

BEAST NIGHT ! =)

- sour apple martinis are the shiat

- oooh deary me ;)

- " im showering take a pic ! " haha with her clothes on at 11 at night = the greatest lol

- beast loves this pics lol .. and i love shimmery stuff =)

- the hottest girls in town !

- ringpops =)

- this is at my house now -- in the car going out to eat !

- thats righttttt !

- at her confirmation party - I LOVE YOU !

- best friends til we die ! =) we were tango-ing , you know you're jealous.

LAKELAND !

- silly face ; i love you guys !

- SENIORS ! you dont know how much were gunna miss you guys !! i lovee youuu

- teen solo night =)

RANDOM !

- me and steimle !! iloveyoubitch

- lunch = boredom. so we take pics !

hope you enjoyed my huuge picture update !

love you all - peace out girl scouts , comment if you love me.

its over.

2005-05-05T21:22:57Z

im stupid to think it could ever work out.

me + you ? never gunna happen ..

worst day ever - comment if you wish ♥

.. and it hurts;

2005-05-04T03:30:21Z

why do i want him still ..
why when theres nothing there ?
how to go on with the rest of my life
to pretend i dont care ?

life is pretty gay right now - if you dont wanna hear me bitch and moan about it then DONT read this entry. yea thanks.

- it hurts to feel like this. it hurts to feel like no one wants me and that im nothing and that im not attractive and just a bad person. it hurts to see him all over other girls when it used to be me .. it hurts feeling like i have no one to turn to and no one to talk to and it hurts feeling like no one can see you. see, i've realized that all my friends can try to help me out with my "boy" problems but it comes down to me in the end. if i wanna think about the guy i will, if i wanna hug him i will, if i wanna be with him i will be. you guys influence me and i appreciate your advice alot but i don't like when people yell at me for still wanting to be with im. you have to understand. do you think i wanna be this upset over it all the time ? you really think if i could get over him that fast that i would still be moping about him all the time. please ! i try and i try and i try and nothing ever works out for me.

i hate going to dance in a bad mood and then getting into an even worse one because i get screamed at. the ONLY times i like dance is wednesdays and thursdays when ricardo is there. he knows how to discipline you without screaming at the top of his lungs. theres no need for that ! honestly ... ugh whatever .. atleast i can attempt to dance out my problems and it usually works. only in like lyrical and jazz tho ! haha

im kind of calming down now.. comment if you want ! peaceeee hoes --

<333 emilyyy *

[ brooke ] thank you so much for understanding ! ur such a great friend and i know i can always count on you .. im always here for you too ! ily2d =]

dante & moosey = best friends for alwaysss

ughhhh.

2005-05-03T02:52:42Z

yea w/e ... today was fucking gay. i really love how you love to piss me off ! like , you purposely go all over her right in front of me .. well guess what asshole - i care ! okay i care so much .. but do you care that i care ? ummmmmm no. whatever .. ugh

the only good part of my day was me and shannon overflowing the washer in p.e ` omg that was the highlight of my life ! haha .. yeah so there was way too much soap so me and shannon are just there taking pictures , waiting for the load to be done. all of a sudden allllll these bubbles start pouring out of the machine , all over the room ! so first we were like on our knees laughing then we were like oh shit , we have to get it out somehow ! so yeah we ran to ms aceto and she was like oh well girls just mop it up .. lmao ! she didn't even care ! so this was the best part - me and shannon like soaking wet trying to get 5 gajillion layers of bubbles and water mopped up. omg i dont think ive ever laughed so hard.

then after 4th hour he had to go and piss me off / break my heart ?

yeah , whatever bitch. comment &hearts;

- emliztar

weekend = fun

2005-05-02T01:54:53Z

holaaaa ! whats up everyone ? im bored and decided to update finally hehe =) this weekend was amazing ! i had so much funnnn ! i spent most of it with dante my love ..

Friday * we went to the movies with scott and josh .. oooh yeah baby .. more on that later ! then we came home and made pasta ( this time with no butter ! lmao ) and we just talked and watched The Notebook for like the gajillionth time haha and then we fell asleep.

Saturday * we got up at like 11 and didnt feel like going to dance so ma said we could go to the beach ! so we drove to her condo and just like layed out all day and went swimming in the pool .. i got SO burnt ! then my dad came at like 4-ish and beastie came back 2 my hosue to sleepover ! we took showers and got ready to go to cheeseecakee =) ma drove us to cheesecake and we had * four cheese pasta ! * of course lol .. it was deliciosooo ! then we went to blockbuster and got saw and the incredibles !! ahh .. we came home and sarted to watch saw but had to turn it off cuz it was so disgusting ! then we just talked online and then went to bed.

Today * we got up , had bagels , then bruce drove us to bcc to watch starpower ! we got there and met up with morgan ! i love you bitch ! there were some amazing dances omg .. i was so mad we didnt compete ! ugh so yeah then bruce came to pick me and shaun up and we went out to eat .. yumm .. we played pool ! haha i sucked so bad ..

so now im just sitting here with aloe all over my back cuz its so red =/ im finally updating yessereee ! comments are love &hearts;

-- lovee yaa !!

.. * emily ` ..

moms store <3

2005-04-18T21:10:18Z

holler holler ! im at my moms store right now playing on the computer when i shouldnt be ;) haha oh well she has customers. so yea today was pretty gay nothing really happened at school .. we just did a hole bunch of work & shit as usuallll .. so yeah i waslked over here with kik and she left and i went on the comp. i tried on pointe shoes but they didnt fit =( lol .. yeah so i cant wait for dance 2day cuz i havent seen my lenny beas in like a looong time ! so i can finally see her ! im really bored as you can see so if you wanna comment , be my guest !

you know you love me ♥

emuhlee

ive become so cold.

2005-04-18T02:44:09Z

hey everyone -- guess who never updates ? haha me .. im constantly commenting on ppls journals but i never update mine. whatever. yeah so this weekend was pretttttty gay ! sweet 16 , slept at stewtz's , got my dress for danis party , and shopped more. thats pretty much it ! so yeah * i havent talked to dani in like 347893728 years since she wasnt online at all this weekend =( lol i miss you beast ! i was supposed to go watch competition 2day but ma wouldnt drive me. again , whatever. i dont wanna go to school tomorrow , i hate seeing him and not speaking. i hate how hes all over her. whatever i have to be strong ! haha yeah so hemmi ann came back from tennesse ! woot woot. ill update tomorrow if i feel like it ♥

- and with a final smile and a final tear
i say goodbye , you walk on by ..
as if we never were ..

em - uhh - lee

go on and break it ..

2005-04-14T03:49:56Z

hey cuties - okay so yeah , he officially has broken my heart into 2 pieces ... but what else is new ? whatever .. 2day was like a bad day ? but it got good at the end lol =) dance was fun i guess , we learned a dance to the blowers daughter ... fuckin amazing song man ! ugh i loved it lol ! and let me just tell you how horrible this girl is ; ugh i cant even put it into words ! me and dani were sitting there hysterically laughing ... i mean come on ... just quit already ! haha .. whatever yo. none of this will happen next year thank god ! i cant wait til summer - its gunna be awesome ! me and dani are learning our duet which by the way will blow your socks away .. haha .. and it will just be relli fun ! im dying my hair to britney spears' color haha but just cuz i like it not cuz of her , ew. i loveee it ! like brownish/reddish =) .. i think im gunna die it friday but i dunno yet , definetly before beastie's party though ! it will be aweeesomee ! i cant wait ! haha .. so yeah i need to go dress shopping for that and this fridya is liz's sweet 16. I think i mite be sleeping at stewtz's after cuz it ends at like frickin midnight and my ma has my brother or w/e .. yeah. Saturday we have gay dance which i really dont have to go to anymore but whatever .. and afterwards i think i mite be sleepin over my biff's house and were going ice skatiinggg !! whoooo hoo hoo its gunna be awesome haha. dont worry , we'll take pictures ;) so yeah theres my life for ya ! its pretty late and im pretty tired so im out , peace.

♥ you all !
emizzle *

IM IN LOVE WITH LENNY BEAS AND HES MINE AND DANIELLES BEST FRIEND AND NOT YOURS ! HAHAHA

LAKELAND = AMAZING

2005-04-12T02:36:39Z

wow , let me start off by saying - lakeland was amazing and i had SO much fun ! ugh ... i love my stellas girls forever ! yeah so thursday night , we had rehersal & ran dances & blah. me and jesie got starbucks then started up the drive to lakeland ! listened to music , slept , got there at like ... 2-ish ? wow it was definetly dead town ! haha but yeah so we got to our hotel & went to sleep.

friday - solo day ! chilled around the hotel .. more ppl came .. made awesome signs to put on our door etc. at like .. 5ish we started getting ready for our solos. got ready , got there , stretched , took pictures , and then competed. my solo felt so good .. i thought i did it really well and i guess the judges did too becuz i got platinum and 4th overall. plus 1st in my category. my lil fumanchu got platinum and first in her category too ! and a special award =) hehe ... so yeah awards was over at like ? um i dont remember wut time but yeah.

saturday - woke up at like 6:30 in the morning to get ready for giselle. got ready blah blah danced and we got plaitnum and fuckin 3rd overall ! ahaha ... we were all like whattttt !? haha but it was great. also later saturday i had my duet for the last time =/ and my trio. duet was amazing .. platinum. trio was good too i guess we got plaitnum and a special award. after my duet me and danielle watched bridge over troubled waters and cried our eyes out. then everyone started crying and we just had a cry fest ( and it wasnt the only one of the weekend ) it was so great tho everyone did sooo amazing.

sunday - ALL of my groups ! haha it was great , all platinums. seniors were amazing ! took pictures , cried my eyes out , ran around like crazy and not to mention me and dani's new best friend for life ... lenny beas ! wll4l .. it was soooooo much fun omg it was so amazing. gina my love parascandola - first place grand champion senior solos ! whoooo hoo hoo .. haha dani .. or should i say duhhh--neee .. haha were the new fannie and kim ! you know it baby ..

yeah so it was definetly amazing and i dont think ive ever cried so much in my whole life ! it was so fun tho .. so yeah, im mad at myself that i never update ! ill start to again ..

you know you love me , im a stellas girl ;)

-- me in the process of burning 3 whole calories ! you know it ...

- duh-nee , best picture ever ! 3 whole calorrriiess baby ! such good times =)

- me and duh-nees new lover ; the most gorgeous man alive ! ahhhh were OCD ! haha

- why look there he is again. hotttttt.

more pics later when i get them developed .. love you &hearts;

whisper to me <3

2005-03-29T03:56:01Z

wow ... everything is going wrong lately .. i hate this ! i thought i was over him .. all over spring break i barely thought of him like im not even joking you he was the last thing on my mind. I get to school this morning and im like shit im gunna see him this is gunna be horrible i cant do this ... so i talked to taylor and kait or w/e and they were like yes you can do this hes not right for you .. so i told myself " yeah , i can " ... me and taylor are walking to 3rd hour and i look up and hes right there. no lie ... my stomach tossed and i was speechless ... it was the first time i had seen him for like a week .. and i immediately realized that i couldnt do it. i cant get over him .. theres just no way. i freaked out i cant even begin to explain how i felt i was just like omg ... i cannot do this ! and taylor was like EMILY ! just dont look at him blah blah and i was just standing there and my stomach was turning and ugh it was so horribvle. i got to 3rd hour and i like ran to cristen so upset ... come on guys i cant get over him this is ridiculous i cant fuckin do this and im so confused and like .. i want to be with him you know ? but i know i shouldnt be ... he treats me no better than the dirt on my shoe and all he wants is to get in my pants .. hes treated me like shit and ive ran back to him cuz when im with him i feel like .. ugh so perfect .. and wen im not with him i fall apart. this is ridiculous , sorry to bore you guys with my drama but if anyone has advice please ... comment .. i really dont know what to do ..

thanks .. kisses & hugs <3

- emily *

i cant take my mind off of you ...

just fade away ...

2005-03-27T04:11:25Z

hey hey hey ! whass go0d ? lmao dani .. well my spring break was AMAZING !! i had soooo much fun ! i hung out with friends , went to the beach , shopped , and ahh so much fun ! well yeah in the beginning .. i hung out with morgasm & carly [ my bifs until forever ] and we had soooo much fun bowling !!! then yeah blah blah i hung out with oher people and these past 2 days ive been with my BEST FRIEND FOR LIFE !! me & beast had soooo much fun it was so amazing and you had to be there. hahaha ! we went to her condo =) and i got plenty o sun ! im all red like a lobster =/ but its okay becuz i was with beastie ! lol .. great times ! we took so many pictures and im about to show them to you ! lol .. so yeah then i had to leave :( but i slept at stewtz's house and we went to macaroni grill ! yummm .. then this morning we woke up at like 11ish .. and i was trying to make plans with fairchild but they didnt work out and i was so sad ! so my mom came and got me and i went home , watched friends , talked to my love , took a shower , and got ready to go with kik to kabooms to hopefully see robert .. but we didnt .. newwwaayyyzzz im so over him ! it sucks but whatever ?? oh well .. yeah so we just hung out with the 2 hotties lee & todd and then i met up with DAVIIDDD and rachel and ricky and her friend ! ahhh david the love of my life ur so funny ! haha i love you too rach ! newayz so yeah time passed and i h ad to leave but whatever the night was pretti gay !? so yeah ! now im here .. bored and tired .. and my tummy hurts =( happy bday vanessatot !!! im gunna go talk to beast now ! here are some gorgeoussss pics of us ! enjoy bitches !

-- love you forever --

E *

-- how hott are we ?!

- D & E FOR LIFEEEE !

-- D writing the best word in the hole world ! haha i love youuu !

-- POOOTTTT !!!

-- D & E again !! bffffffaaee

-- ur TOO cute for words and i love you ! hehe =)

-- Beast sliding down the dunes ! haha

-- me running to the water haha =X

-- me being a loser as always !

-- OMG !! BEST PICTURE EVERRRR ! ME AND ALEXIS ! CAN YOU SAY HOTTIE WITH A NOT SUCH A HOT BODY ?! LMAO DANI ! " i dare you to go up to that kid and ask to take a picture " haha ! loveeee of my life !

-- wow what can i say ? =) i love you ? okay !

-- and im feelin nervous .. trying to be so perfect ..

cuz i know you're worth it , you're worth it .. <33

UGHHH !

2005-03-23T15:23:11Z

OMG okay this is gunna be a bitchy entry but whatever i dont care ... i am SOOO sick of some people !! you dont have to lie and bullshit just to split 2 friends up. and look ! it worked =) happy now bitch ? ugh you piss me the hell off .. everyone thinks ur so nice and cute and UGHHH if they only really knew you ! my god , i really cant stand you. nobody likes you and its really annoying. at school you act like ur the fucking SHIT and ur reallyyyy not so just stop. kthx.

-- okay im done .. sorry .. im just really pissed off. Im supposed 2 go to danielles condo 2day but its raining .. oh well .. idk .. we havent hung out in like 45739857398 years and i miss her. whatever. life is so gayyy ! even though last night and the night before were extremely fun ! MORGAN & CARLY = LIFEEEE ! i love you girls ! lol .. bowling was fun with my huge score if 27 ! you know it ! lmao .. well i never have time to update this damn thing lol , i always forget ! whatever .. whatever whatever ! i love you to the moon !

* and i cant stop thinking of robert lately .. i know , kill me.

` emily beth

always -- is a promise

2005-03-17T20:02:14Z

Hey bitches ... whats up ! not much here -- i never have time to update this damn thing lol .. whatever now i am =) school was so fun today ! especially 3rd hour .. P.E rocks my socks ! me and shannon took soooo many pictures ahaha ill post them all later ! ugh life is so freakin gay lol .. boys = gayyyyyy ! but whatever im over it all lol .. HAPPY ST PATRICKS DAY BABYY ! i wore green eyeshadow 2day and kik wrote all over me with green markers lol yeah so my day was absolutely amazing .. and he didn't even make me sad ! im so good lol .. jkjk .. okay well im gunna go <3333

-- and yeah , i still love him

* emizzle